Day 27 Part 2

have being thinking.. am i really a MCP? i dunno. come to think of it i never really stop u from socializing wad.. when socialize i mean with girls? its ok wad. wad u girls do no need to tell me wad.. but getting close to guys and socializing with them.. is it really normal to socialize until rumors start spreading and i am still kept in the dark.. was it ever fair to me? really no need to tell me meh? dun forget then u had a bf. but true enough.. now u dun have one. just that wad some friend told me flashed pass my mind just now.. u shouldn't stop her from socializing.. but at that time.. did i really stop u? i ask u to make more friend even.. and i did say keep a distant from guy friends.. maybe that was the part where i seem so..MCP.. u din wan to tell me about wad happen thats why i ask.. that act of i-want-to-know-more seems be a form of control to u.. it was my fault too.. but if u wan to hide then dun let me know u are hiding.. jealousy is inevitable? doesn't mean with trust, jealousy will just vanish? u wouldn't like it when i keep saying how nice some girl is to me. even if its not to me, maybe every other people around me.u still wouldn't like that feeling. its the same as how i feel now and then. every guy around u seems so much nicer compared to me. i am still a control freak. but somethings at that time.. as a bf then, i shouldn't know? i admit i am control freak now.. now i am just a friend and i still wan to know so much about u. i dun deny that.. but at that time... is it really control... if it wasn't... then why will we be in this state... Catch 22? i wan to believe that nothing is going on.. i wan to believe this is just a cold war..

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