dunno why. everything just started to come back to me. life seems cruel in some way. if u missed it u really missed it.. dun be stupid and make a mistake like dropping something.. going back for it will only cost u a place in this competitive world today.. Susan mentioned last last week that the university intake has increased.. but its still dam competitive.. to think that only half or even one third of everyone in the audi cant get a place in uni. the guy next to u is ur fren ur bro ur khaki.. but at the same time he is ur competitor leh. my god. this sucks..
guess no one really felt this form of competition.. afterall the selection is done behind closed doors.. and u will never know u are compared with who.. but in the real world i guess it will be worse ba.. by then the so called colleagues can really be just colleagues. can u really trust them that they wun backstab u? or can u even be sure that u wun back stab them when u have the chance?
so much for a civilised society. so wad if we have advance technology and invincible WMDs? ultimately we are just animals in disguise. our instinct tells us to survive. yea.. so much for saving the world Bush. saving the world in a civilised way then. going into war with weapons and killin innocent is as good as a cheetah going after a deer. one have to die in order for the other to survive.. sounds familar? thats like the ecosystem of the Mother Land~ sound like some food chain to me. but yea.. maybe being civilised would mean to settle disputes and save lifes without taking away after lives?
Human instincts are fundamentally the same as animals. given a choice. will u choose someone else to die or choose to die youself? if u answered the later, then u must be lying..when the real thing happens, everyone is on their own. that only applies for the real world. ^^
any frens u meet before that are for real. trust me. treasure them as diamonds before they all turn into carbon in a million years time. the past 10 years of education really exposed me to loads of great frens... lost and gain and lost and gain again.. no typo.. but yea.. treasure them. its 3 more months from Prelims now.. and another 90+ days to A levels.. no one knows how life will be like in the future.. or will there even be a chance to see ur fren who pei u to school everyday.. thats why.. treasure every minute u share now. before u start to miss them like shit in the near future. ^^who say no time?? arhahaha.. mug together la! definitely got time like that.
just realise how long that post was.. it might be the logest i ever wrote? LOL! i dunno.. just felt a urge to let all this out.. the real working world is too unpredictable.. but at least u know the frens u made now are for real!! ^^ thats a relieve hur?
shall go finish up chem revision lecture....
life is no longer boring. its all about you. =D
have being thinking of a channel to tell you about it.. but i never knew which way to. -.- all seems so awkward and weird and.... in appropriate.. i guess i just have to be honest to u. i dun deny that i am attached now.. maybe its not the best time to tell u about it.. but really hope u are ok and u wun think too much. just feels that it will be better if i told u rather then u found out from someone else. yup. time to move on? i tot u did. so its kinda of complicated.. but the prime rule of HECK CARE UNION states: anything u dunno,just dun care. i know its will be damn bastard of me to say that i dun care. but really think that it will be more fair to her that way. plus even if i did care.. it will be just frens. rite? u told me that. ^^ and i really felt that too. sorry that i broke that childish promise of waiting.. i am really sucks at waiting.. but it was there. trust me. but i believe she will be a better girl for me. mm. really hope u are ok and drop me a msg if u are. k? =D
i'm running from reality
and into my own world
